This is something that really happened to me not long after I left the porn industry. At the time, not only was I losing everything I owned - which I had expected - but I had also lost a relationship with a girl I’d been dating for six years, and to whom I had been engaged to two years.
My entire world as I knew it was crashing down around me. I was going through a period that seemed almost like a detox, of sorts: I wasn’t able to sleep, but would instead cry so hard that I’d eventually vomit, then finally fall asleep from sheer exhaustion, only to wake up a few hours later, when the process would repeat itself over and over again.
This went on for a period of several months. I was hardly functional at night, and barely functional during daylight hours. Nevertheless, what I’m about to tell you isn’t a dream or a hallucination. While some might roll their eyes and scratch their heads, I can only share what I experienced.
On a handful of occasions, God has literally whispered into my ear. The last time he did so was in May of 2014. Prior to that, I heard His whisper in October of 2012. But the time I want to tell you about was in the early months of 2007, a few months after leaving porn. His voice was audible. Had anyone been standing beside me, I don’t think they would have heard it, but for me, it sounded the exact same way it would sound if you were to lean over and whisper directly into my ear.